March 19, 2013 at 13:36 (Uncategorized)

In many ways, the beginning of this year is worse than the beginning of last year.

Last year was just grief – there was nothing else.  There was always sadness and a year of ‘firsts’ – first events without Sybella, first birthday since her death, first anniversary of her death.

This year there is still sadness but it’s not all there is.  So when the sadness hits, it’s sudden and shocking and throws emotions into turmoil.  It was easier with constant sadness.  But the sadness was also terrible.  It’s just not easy.  And I don’t think it ever is.


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